” I still don’t know how to act, Don’t know what to say, Still wear the scars like it was yesterday, but you’re long gone and moved on” -the script

This time I totally agreed with Danny’s song its almost 3 months or 4 the last time I talked about Ethan. (not just in blogs but in my everyday life.

For the past months Ethan and I have already got the point that we had to stop chatting, I changed and he changed, I knew that this day will come. He is still concern though but not the way it use to be. Things changed sooo much, I knew that he knew I did it intentionally by not showing him that im online and ignoring him. We both like it that way because we wanted to keep distance and it wasn’t fun anymore. The literal “distance” we had is really hard and annoying but I can’t do anything all i know is -its time to let go.

I Know! I know! that i already said that i would never talked about Ethan anymore but I cant help it because he is my everything and we had a great time and its so sad that everything we had just flew away.

I dont know why i kept on doing this. he moved on and yet im still trap with this messed maybe i just really miss him :(

Lethargic

I woke up and feeling lazy, dont want to move i just want to watch tv and stay in my bed.

Hope to get some peaceful rest today…

And by the way ethan just message me wondering if im okay… And dont know what to say :|